What does God envision me to be? A trader, ecommerce business owner, content creator, real estate investor/ agent, relationship consultant, blogger, or a housewife? Lately I’ve been enlightened through my journey with Christ that I am a jack of all trades. Not only can I redirect the notions of self imagined by society, but I’ve understood that reassigning my judgment to the Lord instead exemplifies that I am more than one thing.
Although I’m aware that I prayed for guidance and direction, accepting that the labels defined by society are unacceptable for “little old me” has been difficult. Regardless of God’s push to many talents, I’m steadfast on fitting into being one thing. But why? My ego is no longer shattered by fear of failure and I’m well aware that I am good enough. I’m rather conflicted by the lack of understanding and planning required to unlock the multiple versions of myself.
Like most things in life, success comes with sacrifice and sacrifice demands introspection. Intellectually, I’ve grasped the concept of who I am, but not how to become. It’s not that I’m being too hard on myself currently, I don’t believe that’s the case. The problem is, I need to trust that I’m exactly where I’m meant to be right now; confused, seeking guidance, knowing who I am and learning to become these things. I am on the journey I prayed for so why focus on the lack of how, since it's a matter of when?